[THOUGHTS] Insecurities, drama, people.


After going through quite a bit of emotional turmoil within the last few months, I've reflected on a lot of things in my life. This is not quite the usual kind of post I make on here but someone might be able to relate to what I've been thinking about. Plus, my blog is to share bits and pieces of me with everyone so why not? Oh the wonderful thing about the Internet, right :)?

Growing up, I've been very insecure about a lot of things. One of them is my appearance. This only got worse after I entered the most drama filled stage of life - high school. I had a serious overbite, frizzy un-tame hair, manly eyebrows, a "fat" face, "ugly" single eyelids...and I could go on forever on how I hated my self for the longest time. I hated mirrors because I would get upset at what I see far too often.

I felt ugly.

And because it was high school, all the drama that came along didn't help either. In my last 2-3 years of high school, I was a really sad person. Like, literally. (HS lingo anyone?) I'm sure a lot of people would argue that high school was the best time of their lives, but that wasn't the case for me.

I felt alone.

This is probably one of the reasons why I started to lost weight drastically because I developed severe IBS when I turned 17 for at least a year. I dropped from 115 lbs to a lowest point of 89 lbs (and I'm 5'4 - definitely not a healthy weight). This was also the start of my TMJ issues (aka I grind my teeth like crazy and it shifted my jaws).

It wasn't until the 1st year of university that I actually started to lighten up a little bit. I met some of my best friends that year (I know one of  you is reading this, yes you sir ;D) and that really changed my life.

Hate to sound so cliche but being around the right people is very crucial. Not happy with how people are treating you? Get the hell out of there. Surrounding yourself with negative people that constantly put you down, talk behind your back will do nothing but give yourself stress and unnecessary pressure. Meeting new people/friends will really change your views on a lot of things, including how you look at yourself. Those who stick around prove that you are much more than all the negative things you think you are and other people say.

Time will show you who cares and loves you for who you really are - at your best and at your worst :)

Phew. Done.

Kristine Lam

2 comments:

  1. I totally feel you and you are absolutely right about surrounding yourself with the right kind of people! I've come to realize working in beauty industry that so many people put themselves down for a certain aspect of their appearance that people would never noticed until it's pointed out (and even so, it's barely noticeable). Just like how I never would have thought you had insecurities about those things because I don't see any of that when I look at you! You are a cutie : )

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    1. We're definitely the hardest on ourselves and it's important to learn to love yourself to not let all the insecurities you have get the best of you : )
      Thanks Shiyu <3

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